In this room Goldman wrestled with his problem and the problems of the world, and out of wonder and despair created for himself in his imagination a life of liberation, intensity, and vitality for the future to come, happily preoccupied by it all, but in this room he also learned to renounce this life with great sorrow and an oppressive sense of failure, only to return desperately after a short time to create for himself, out of jealousy and longing and immense hope, a life even more beautiful and brazen, a life transcending all laws and possiblities, and between one and the other he trained himself to live his slow and certain death with complete acceptance, even readiness, although he yearned to live a thousand years. -Yaakov Shabtai, Past Continues