Sweet Holy titfire.

Normally I write a review right after I finish a book while the image is fresh in my mind. However, this book kept me up until almost 6 in the morning and I was delirious, This book plagued my dreams and has been mulling around my head all day until I could finally sit down to write this review. That is both good and bad. I dreamt about rocking horses, spears, and mind control, which if I am being honest here was both titillating and horrifying. Reading about this happening to the characters in the book was one thing, having my mind think I was Hannah while I was sleep... Nope, Nada, NEVER, Hell to the NO, and Now I need therapy STAT. Although to be fair, I might need a hug more than I need therapy now.


This is not a pretty story, and for anyone that has read about the Mesmer world then this says something because HOLY holy hell this is on a level that few can handle. As horrifying as this world is there is just something about it that, for lack of a better word, mesmerizes me. It makes my mind think and panic a little. To discover that this author was bringing this world back and adding one of my other favorite authors that also pushes the limits EVERY time (Reign of Ruin still makes me shudder thinking about it MONTHS later) to the mix had me wanting to do a serious jig.

I never in my wildest dreams thought this would be as well done as it was. Nor did I think they could go any darker. I was wrong. Holy hell was I wrong. I will never look at Rocking Horses the same way. I had a very hard time differentiating who was writing what. (a certain spear was a definite giggle because that was from another favorite character/scene of mine so that was the ONLY time that I knew with absolute certainty who was writing.) *** Updated to add that I was wrong and the author that I THOUGHT wrote this DID NOT write this scene. This just goes to show how amazing these two authors are and how alike they are in regards to their writing and minds. This actually scares me now considering how twisted they both are when it comes to twisted juxtaposed with tantalizing. *** That says something about this collaboration. It was seamless dark and depraved perfection. Numerous times I found myself thinking, "Oh Holy titifire, THEY are taking it THERE."

I cannot stress enough that this book is Dark. I am not talking about, "Oh look, there are stars dark" but rather this is, " being trapped in a cave in the middle of the earth where no light source has ever shone before type of dark."

This is darker than 13 midnights--PITCH BLACK type of dark. There are more triggers than I can even prepare someone for. These authors didn't just dip their toes into the dark or teeter on dark elements. Oh, no they jumped right in and gave zero pinches of squirrel crap about who they might or might not offend (Looking at the pearl clutchers here) because this WILL offend someone.

These two are driving the bus to hell and are quite okay with that> I am just glad that I discovered them both and ever thankful that I bought the all aboard pass because this debaucherous journey has been so worth it. Read this if pitch black that leaves a smudge on your soul is your thing. ( )

Dayum. I mean, just dayum. Even days after reading this book, I'm still in a state of shock from it. It destroyed me in the very best way. Jennifer Bene and Cari Silverwood on their own are both mistresses of dark, disturbing, kinky, filthy words, but when you put the two of them together, we end up with all kinds of imaginative darkness. I think these ladies egged each other one to see who could be the darkest, as we are definitely the ones who benefited from it.

Mesmers are men who have a little extra oomph. They can control certain women and get them to do just about anything. Tomik is a mesmer, and Hannah is his latest collectible, except she's more than just that. She was his childhood love, and now he's got her.

The thinks that Tomik does are just... yeah. The things that Tomik wants to do might actually scare me a little bit. Of course, it's scaring me in that totally good way, if that makes any sense.

Tomik is such a deeply layered and just as deeply disturbed character, which is really all kinds of awesome. He's one of those guys that you are never sure if you hate to love him, love to hate him, or just wish him dead in ugly ways. Or, you know, maybe wish into your bed.

Hannah is really hard to get a read on. It's really fascinating, really. I'm still trying to figure her out, and I suspect that I will be for a while. ( )