Very eh. I liked this book better than "The Best Little Girl in the World", though. Quick read; I read it today while I was hiding in the back of the library, skipping AP Biology. ( )

Second Star To The Right By: Deborah Hautzig... This book kind of upset me because she is a skinny teenager that has an amazing life and an amazing family that loves her for who she is. It all started when her and Cavett went to a Halloween party and she didn't really know anyone so she was not having as much fun as Cavett was having, but towards the middle of the dance a bot came up to her and asked her to dance. They got along pretty well and she had a blast after that, but her and Cavett had to leave to catch the bus to get home. When Leslie got home she looked at her self in the mirror and thought she didn't deserve to be with a boy an that she was to fat. When she got to her end point and the doctor said to stop losing weight because for her age and body she is to skinny, but with her losing to much weight her mind was not thinking right so she decided that she wanted to lose under 99 pounds. Her family started to get worried about her and wanted her to stop losing weight. They got to the point where they were bribing her with food so that she would eat. I think you should read this book if you like anorexia nervosa type of books this is the book to read. ( )

For some reason, this book was different then all the eating-disorder related books I read when I was a teenager. I have never been able to figure out if it was because of Leslie, the main character, or something about the way that it was written, but somehow this book "motivated" me to stay anorexic. It's a well-written book, but I have horrible memories of it. For someone going through anorexia, maybe it might hit too close to home to be of much help. ( )

On the face of it, Leslie is a normal, healthy, well-adjusted fourteen-year-old girl. She goes to a good school, has a great friend in Cavett, and a mother who loves her to the moon and back. She should be happy, yet she’s not. She would be, she thinks, if only she were thinner. But “thinking thin” becomes a dangerous obsession and Leslie’s weight drops to five stone, threatening to destroy her and the whole fabric of her family life. Only by realizing that this condition is an illness – and one that has its roots in a deep problem – can Leslie hope to survive. From Amazon UK

This is such a brilliant, heart breaking but wonderful novel! I have no idea how I can possibly do this book justice with this review.

The book starts off a little slow. Leslie has started a new school, she makes a friend, and we see she has some issues with her mother. The issues run all the way through, but I must admit that I don't fully understand what her problems with her mother are. Sometimes she seems to love her desperately, and other times she wants to shout at her mother, but I can't see myself what her mum has done wrong, even though the novel is in first person. This may just be me, maybe it would be clearer to others. But the issues that she has she goes through in her internal monologue, and it's just heart breaking to see her chop and change so quickly from desperately loving her mother, to blaming her with such fury.

It's also heart breaking to read about Leslie developing anorexia. It starts with stomach flu. She loses a few pounds, and her jeans aren't as tight, so she decides to go on a "diet" - that involves eating hardly anything. Everyone compliments her as she loses weight, so she loses more and more. Though she doesn't know it at the time, the anorexia is the little dictator in her head, berating her over how greedy she is, telling her she's fat, but she's strong, and she can go without. The little dictator is merciless.

It gets to the point where how much food she's not eating, how much she weighs is all Leslie thinks about - until she can't make it to the bus stop to get to school because she is just so weak and tired. Reading it all made me feel so empty, like I was the one who hadn't eaten. I can't explain it, but I was just so effected by this story. She ended up wanting help, but it seemed like she didn't know exactly what help she wanted. When hospitalised, she wouldn't eat right and had no desire to put on weight, but she was desperate to be helped. It was just so hard to read. And every time I read Leslie saying "I'll know when I'm thin enough because I'll be happy", it was just so upsetting.

What also made this book extremely powerful was the fact that it was semi-autobiographical. Deborah Hautzig was suffering from anorexia, not yet cured, when this book was originally released. She was experiencing it as she wrote it. It's just so, so sad. This is the one book I have read for this month where there is no resolution. Does Leslie get better? We don't know. But she's getting help - and that's the point where Hautzig was at when she wrote the book.

This is a brilliantly powerful and poignant book that just took my breath away. It's just brilliant, and one I think everyone should read.

From Once Upon a Bookcase - YA book blog. ( )

This is pretty dated now -- the perception and treatment of anorexia have changed a great deal in the 25+ years since this novel was written. But it's still an enjoyable read. ( )