OMFG that last chapter was epic! ( )

edit: so i’ve figured out my problem. kingsley’s big quandary for cora is whether she is capable of murder. not what it would take for her to want to kill someone, just simply could she do it. TWO BOOKS. it takes TWO books, for cora to come to the conclusion that yeah, she can kill a man.

no shit! any body is capable of murder. any one! it all comes down to motive!! why on earth! should this be something that needs to be agonized over for 500 pages? you give a n y one a good enough motive, or make them desperate enough, or angry enough, any one could do it! it just seems so obvious, so binary to me. and so that’s what it made me so frustrated with these two books, because the question is not “what would she kill for?” it’s “is she capable?”. and that distinction matters!! deliberating on one is stupid and agonizing? the other is interesting and worth the time!

my second big realization, which follows my problem above, is that there is a huge difference between killing your rapist and cold blooded murder. like.. duh? and her having cora kill duncan, and using that as her big justification moment for why it’s okay to kill the ringmaster is kind of gross to me? like killing the man who raped her and her good friend is like extremely justifiable to me. killing a perfectly innocent, good man is super not. and using the first as ammunition for the other is such a bizarre, strange choice i really can’t get over it.

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i just…..

i was SO into the first two books, and then the third one bored me, and then this one bored me even MORE. nothing happens. it is 200-whatever pages of her deliberating on the ONE choice she has to make and it’s so STUPID BC YOU KNOW SHE’s GOING TO SAVE THE CARNIVAL. LIKE OBVIOUSLY.

if i can force myself to read book 5….. ugh ( )